The Joshua Yoder Blog

 With both High School and College Football well underway and the NFL not far away off in the distance. It is a very exciting time for Football. Football is one of my favorite sports to watch and has been for many years. Mostly because it is one of the few sports that me and my family get to sit down and watch together. Another reason is that in my humble opinion is an excellent way to blow off some steam and help take the edge off on a lot of anger and frustration. I have a done of respect for a lot of people who went out there a competed on any level of competition whether be from PeeWee, High School, College, Pro whatever. Football is a very physical and grueling sport and yet, it is so much fun! There is a ton of different football going on inside my house with my family having differences on which teams to watch. Heck! It don't matter to me, I just look at it as more chances to watch football. Whether, it be the Cowboys, Rams, Steelers, Eagles, etc. Or Penn State, Notre Dame,

 In my humble opinion, one of the most underrated professional wrestlers of all-time in Stevie Richards aka the Master of the Stevie Kick, the leader of the greatest faction of all-time in the Blue World Order. Richards got his big break in Extreme Championship Wrestling back in the 90s and got to work with incredible wrestlers many of which were some of the biggest names in the business. Such names like Mick Foley, Terry Funk (RIP), Raven, Tommy Dreamer, The Road Warriors (RIP), Shane Douglas. The first time I got to witness Stevie however was when he competed in WCW along with Raven and the rest of the Flock. Of course, most of my memories came from WWE and TNA. Richards got to do some memorable moments like the Right to Censor faction, Stevie Night Heat and of course the Blue World Order reunion. Thanks to the internet, I got to witness some of his early stuff and in humble opinion, the bWo still holds up to this very day. I got to meet Stevie Richards while I was working with CPW a

 This comes to no ones surprise but I am a major dork! But believe it or not, I was once about of one of my favorite things in life and that was professional wrestling. For five years, I got to be apart of something I never thought I could be and yet, I did. Going through a lot of self reflection lately and looking back on my time during those years has helped put a lot of things into prospective for me. We are going to have to back track a little bit before I go into it. I have always been a fan of professional wrestling ever since I was little. But it was when I got into high school I got to meet some amazing people.  I got to meet guys like Chris Dubler, Andy Hoar, Jimmy, TJ and Matt Silks who were at the time were running a backyard promotion. Well at least during the summer, it is pretty hard to run a backyard promotion when it is cold outside 😆 lol! Fast forward a few years, I got to witness these guys create a local promotion around Lewistown and it was one of the greatest expe

 Sorry it has been a little while since I was writing on my blog. I am a shame to admit that I have been pretty depressed these last few days. Honestly, I also been doing a lot of soul searching again and I have come to realize or finally willing to admit that I have a major fear of change. I would even say that I am not scared of change, I am petrified of it! There is so much out there that I ain't even close to understanding and I may never be able to. This fear has kept me from wanting to reach out into the world and find myself, but also the ability to reach out and build relationships with other people. Ever since I was little I had always struggled to really get close to anyone. Don't get me wrong, I got along with everyone regardless of who they are and I am proud of that. But at the same time, it was hard for me to truly connect with anybody because I have had so many people come in a out of my life that I failed to even try to talk to anyone even my own family. Again,

 For whenever I get to see the color blue. It reminds me that no matter what will happen in this life, to forever stay true. For when I see the color blue it shows me the truth that I seek. But it also reminds me to no matter what, to remain humble and meek. It is the color of the beautiful sky in the air and the waves of water splashing in the ocean. Much like the waves crashing, so are the wide range of emotion. It is a color of purity and love in a world that has become so dark and scary. Yet I feel the comfort of a mother's love and the mother's name is Mary. Blue speaks to me in a way that helps keep me calm and is an escaped from the sick reality. To this day I pray to feel that sweet, sweet serenity.

 The beauty of imagination has been something that has always excited me as well as inspire me to become a writer and be able to create a world where it could be used to inspire others. Using our imagination can be used in so many different ways whether it be to make up a game to play when we were kids or even use it to help create something special that can help change the world as we know it. As I have been going through a lot of self-reflecting, I realized how much being creative and writing stories help saved my life and to be even more frank, learn a lot about myself as a human being. Imagination has brought me so much joy and to be honest a feeling of comfort and safety and more importantly, HOPE! Hope was a feeling that I could never ever possess in my life and I often wonder why I would randomly write things down or just write characters or stories. Looking back on some of them I noticed a change about me as well as the difference in my writing. I use to think of dark, gothic,

    Do we really learn from the past? Do we as people will ever truly understand what is happening around us each and every day? For my entire life, I have search, questioned and prayed to help me understand what, why and how when it comes to this crazy world we live in. I often wonder if I am even doing anything worth while. I can't even watch or read anything in the news anymore because I honestly feel like all it does is cause hatred. Like is anything even being accomplished? I see people arguing and saying incredibly terrible things to each other over something and honestly I'm not even sure they are talking about the same thing half time. Do you really know what we are talking about? Or is it has the bible says, the blind leading the blind? Heck, even if somebody was right about something, they are still wrong because they think that gives them the excuse to just ruin people's lives. There are so many questions, I wish I could find an answer to. But I don't even kn

 As I return home after a long day of pain and despair. Just wanting this day to come an end because I do not know how much more that I can bare. The loneliness of a long cruel and cold day has really put my heart in dismay. It is as if there is no room for joy or any time to play. As I step into the shower to help put my worries and stresses to rest. The aches and the pains of the day are nothing more than a small relief at best. The feel of the water was supposed to give me thrills. But atlas, it only has given me chills. God will this ever end for me? I just want to feel loved and free! For then I felt a hand so warm up and down my back. It is a feeling of love and such caring that keeps everything intact. I turn around and see a beautiful angel that only God could send. She smiles at me so seductively as if to say that she wants to be more than a friend. Her warm embrace makes me feel so alive! While her beautiful lips taste so sweet like honey from a bee hive. Feeling up her hair

 There has been something that I have been wanting to get off my chest for a while now, but I do admit that I am a little scared to talk about it. I've been wanting to get back into dating for a while now, but still struggle with having the confidence to be able to approach women. To be honest, I don't know what to do. The last time that I was even in a relationship was over ten years ago. We met through mutual friends and I felt amazing energy from her, like she just understood me and we related on everything, especially with dealing with anxiety, depression, etc. To be honest with everyone, it was really the first time in my life that I felt so passionate and it just seem to be so natural when I was with her. It was like we didn't need to say anything to one another, we just knew what the other was feeling and it was incredible to have someone like that. I never thought in my life that I could feel the way I did with any woman but I did with her. Sadly, I also never felt