Miss You Nan! 15 Years Later!

 Well as everyone knows, Thanksgiving is slowly coming upon us and I thought about writing about one of things I am forever grateful for. And those moments were with my Nan or Grandmother for some of those who won't sure who I was talking about.

Reason as to why I am also writing about my Nan is that today's blog post is a tribute to one of the most important person in my life as it is now officially been 15 years since her passing 😭. For years, this was and to some degree still hurts me inside. But as I grow older and maybe wiser lol, I think back and realize how much my Nan would want me to move past it. She knows how much I loved her and how much she meant to me, but it honestly feel like she is telling me to let go of the pain and continue to move forward.

Don't get me wrong, I am not going to ever forget her. What I am saying is that I can't let the pain of losing her hold me down among other things.

Of course, it is crazy to think that her death has now been 15 years because it honestly feels like only yesterday that I was given the terrible news of how my Nan had moved on from this world. What I remember about the closing time of her life was how she was constantly going in and out of the hospital. And when her final day happened and I received the call about her passing, I just remember falling to the floor in tears.

Truth is, I never wanted to her to go, I felt like it wasn't her time, but only God knows when our times will be up.

For a long time, I had such a struggle to get over something, mainly because I didn't have many people around me which was my fault because I was awkward around people. So losing her left a massive gap in my life.

But again, trying to be more positive and let go of the pain, I want to talk about something of my favorite memories of my Nan.

For starters, I always loved when she gave and big hug every time I saw which included a kiss on the cheek and with her telling me she loved. She was always so loving and caring to me and any time that my twin brother Chad and I would get into an argument over something, she would just kiss us on and cheek and tell both of us that she loved us and we would both forget why we were fighting each other in the first place.

One of the things I remember was when me and Chad went and visited her, my Nan would be watching one shows on TV which would either be, the Price is Right, the 700 Club or a soap opera called Guiding Light, that is what she watched.

I also remember how we could never say no to her, like ever lol. For example, Chad and I would mow her lawn for her and my Nan kept telling us that she was going to make us shells and cheese for us and we kept telling her that she didn't need to do that. But of course, when we were finished, we would simply walk into the house and there my Nan was, making shells and cheese for us and Chad and I just went in and ate it lol.

My Nan was always so loving, caring and warm, she always put a smile on my face. I thank God everyday for the time I had with her even when it hurts knowing she is no longer here with me.

But then there are times where I feel like she is still there, every time I see a cardinal, I think of her and my Pap. It is like God is telling me that loved ones may be gone in body, but not in spirit and again, I am so grateful for it all. 🙏🙏🙏

Again, it is hard to believe that it has been 15 years since we lost you. I will always love you Nan! It is not you that I am letting go, it is the pain of losing you, that I am letting go. I will always cherished the memories of Nan as I continue to push forward in my life and I pray that I am making you, Pap and God proud of me.

And I also hope and pray to leave an impact on somebody else's life when my time comes and it will come because death in inevitable like you have done for me.

Be thankful for the people you have in your life, because you never know when their time comes. I love you always Nan! I am forever thankful for the time I had with you and Pap. I hope and pray to one day see you again.

Until Next Time!

God Bless and Be Safe Everybody! 🙏🙏🙏


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

2009 Lewistown Panthers Baseball

Image
 Well, with me trying to become more positive about myself, I have been looking back into the past and find ways to let go of some of the negative emotions attached to it. One such issue was going back to my time at Lewistown Area High School which as mentioned before was a huge struggle for me.  But again, trying to be more positive, I wanted to look back at that time and remember some of the good moments during that period. One of which was playing for the Lewistown Panthers baseball team. Heading into my senior year of high school, I wasn't in the best state of mind. Honestly, I really did not want to be there anymore, I was just so sick of life, never thought I was going to be anything. All I ever was going to be was a huge disappointment. I can only give credit to God for being able to get through that year. But then baseball tryouts came along and I decided to go for it again. The previous years I've tried only to fail, which in fairness, wasn't much of a surprise bec...
Read more

The 2005 Lewistown Panthers Football Team!

Image
 I recently completed reading my story for Hometown Sports Magazine about the 2005 Lewistown Panthers football team who finally ended a thirty years of losing seasons. In this blog, I wanted to talk about why I wanted to write about this team and how I feel the lessons that were learned about them throughout the year can still be used today.  One of the biggest reasons as to why I wanted to write about this team was because of how much of team these guys were both on and off the field. These guys have played the game of football together for a number of years and it clearly showed. Plus being a youngster, I really didn't know the history of Lewistown Panthers football. I only remember going to games because I remember my cousins playing on the team. But talking about the football team in general, to put it nicely, there wasn't a lot of success. In fact when I started this journey of writing this story, I discovered that Lewistown didn't have a winning season for thirty year...
Read more

Congrats To Trent Hidlay! (World Champion)

Image
 Although, it has become common knowledge, by many of us who live in Mifflin County. But former Huskies' great Trent Hidlay pulled off an incredible comeback and became the 2025 World Wrestling Champion in Croatia at 92 kg. After being down 10-2, Hidlay powered his way back to defeat Amanula Gadzhimagomedov 13-10 to win the World's Gold Medal. This is such an inspirational story that needs to be told because stuff like this does not happen very often, especially in a small community like Mifflin County.  To me, the story of Trent is all about never giving up and continuing to push forward as well as hard work and dedication. What this young man has done is truly remarkable. I have been covering local sports for over ten years now and seeing where Trent has started to where he is now really puts a smile on my face. I mean this kid has won two State championships when he was in High School before moving on to Division 1 college wrestling at NC State. While there, Trent was a fou...
Read more