Bedtime Blues (Poem)

 Why must I go through another night laying in tears. It has though everything I feared has surrounded me and those I hold dear.

What good am I anyway? So many times I've asked God this question every time I pray. No answer seems to be given, all hope has gone astray.

I am such a failure, can't you hear my cries. I'm so ashamed, that I can't even looked into my niece and nephew's eyes.

God I pray they never have to feel the way I feel. Please protect them Lord and show them that, no matter what, love is real.

I've tried my best to be the man and search for love and happiness, but each time these women just me as someone they just past on through. It was like they were telling me, we never loved you.

With each passing day, I only get reminders of why I fail. The older I get, just only reminds me how much more my body is frail. Any kind of happiness has set sail.

Let me close my eyes and escape reality. Just let me lay to rest and hear the sounds of raindrops put my brain in sweet serenity.

I don't know how I can just keep going, all I feel are the blues. Or is this just God telling me to fear not, for I will carry you?

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