Depressed But Hopeful

 With it being Easter today, many people will be celebrating by looking for Easter eggs with their love ones. Me, I will be dealing with more depression. 

It has been a little while since I have written anything on my blog, mainly because of my current battle with my mental health. I am just laying here frustrated with myself and honestly, it has taken me away from the things I love like my writing.

Things in my life haven't been going well, been struggling with my work, my head is filled with some many different thoughts and I am just not really sure what to think and more so, I am not even sure if I am making any sense. I have tried to talk to some people about this, but all it seems to come up in my head is just jibber-jabber. It was making me feel insane.

Yet, at the same time, I have been feeling more hopeful, especially more recently. Why is that? How could I possibly feel hopeful and sad at the exact same time? I can only guess that God is watching over me.

It just feels like every time I have negative feelings or thoughts come over me, I immediately get like a comforting feeling. It kind of feels like something is trying to stop me from filling my mind with bad thoughts.

I have been distracting myself with some music like Stevie Ray Vaughn and numerous other artists. And now I am back writing again, which feels amazing to get this stuff out of my head. But honestly, I have so much more to get through because I only have been writing on my blog. I really need to focus, my dream is to make a career of this as writing has been such a beautiful part of my life and has helped me out so much.

I definitely did not like depression keeping me away from it or maybe I needed to take time away for a bit because I needed to clear my head mentally.

Sorry if I am not making any sense, but I pray that everyone has a safe Easter and no matter how dark things may seem, just know that there is always hope.

And hopefully I will get writing again because I have goals that I hope to reach someday. 

Until Next Time!

God Bless and Be Safe Everybody! 🙏🙏🙏

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