2025 Learning To Let Go!

 I just recently completed a recording for my talk show on YouTube with my long time friend Matt Silks who I first met my freshman year of High School. In fact, it has officially been twenty years since I have known him. Which is crazy to me because I don't really get to hang around with many people in this world.

With that being said, both me and Matt have gone through a ton of different stuff in our lives. We both had to overcome a lot of darkness, different kinds of darkness, but darkness nonetheless.

Trying not to spoil much of my episode as it will not air until the following Wednesday, but there was a lot of talk about our struggles in the past and to be perfectly honest with all of you, I wasn't expecting to really discuss as much as we did.

Matt was extremely open to me and it made me open up to him and to many of you who will watch it. About my struggles with self-harming and why things ended up the way they did. But truthfully, it may have been unexpected, yet it felt necessary. Like God was telling me to let it all out.

Despite 2025 being a bit of a down year for me personally, but at the same time, a year of self-reflection and letting go of the pain of the past. Not forgetting the pain, but moving on from it, if that makes any sense.

It started with being grateful with some of my blog posts including one where I gave tributes to both my Nan (Who died 15 years ago) and Pap (Who died 25 years ago). There has been a ton of release of negativity in my life, even when I got real depressed, I didn't get super anxious. I would even go as far and say I handle it a lot better than I would have back in my younger days.

Getting to see Matt so happy and smile even after going through what he went through in his life and to see what he is doing with his pro wrestling company (HWF) for our little community is truly incredible.

Ever since we were young kids in High School, we talked about how cool it would be to have pro wrestling here in little Lewistown, Pa and make an impact was always a goal. And to see Matt overcome his demons and now has putting together an amazing shows for people is truly inspiring.

Maybe this is what God wanted me to learn for 2025? Maybe I was not quite ready yet to move forward like I thought I did? Maybe it was God's way of telling me to slow down?

Like the title says, 2025 was the year of me learning to let go! And through it all, it made me realize how important life is and I am forever grateful for it.

Although it wasn't how I wanted 2025 to be, I am thankful to the year of 2025 for being the year that I needed it to be.

Here is to the year of 2025! And here is to the year 2026 for being more positive and looking forward towards the future!

God Bless to you and to your family Matt!

Until Next Time!

God Bless and Be Safe Everybody! 🙏🙏🙏

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