The Black Labyrinth (Poem)

 Why is it so dark in here? Am I still holding onto the fear? Or is my mind playing tricks on me? Is everything I see and feel completely insincere?

Why does this keep happening to me? What did I do wrong? People probably think I am crazy, they come into my life before simply moving along.

Maybe I don't deserve people for they could never understand me. Heck I don't even understand me half the time, who knows what it could be.

No matter how much of my flesh I take, no matter how many times I pray. The voices in my head simply refuse to just go away.

I'm not crazy, I know I'm crazy. Maybe I need some rest for my mind is still a bit hazy. 

What does all of this even mean? I'm trying my best to stay positive and keep mind my mind and heart clean. But trapped inside is a nasty fiend.

Just leave me alone, I don't want to be a bother. Am I good enough for any of you, including you Heavenly Father?

Pain and suffering is all that I have ever known, it is hard to get away. I'm just tired of all of this fighting from within, I wish I could start a new day, this I pray.

But I can't stop without seeing my scars, they are everywhere! Could somebody please just hold me and show that you care. I understand that life isn't fair, but I really don't want to be stuck in this cold and empty chair.

My failures continue to haunt me, just another mark I have to make. I'm sick of all this sadness and heartache.

Trapped inside this nasty box has brought me an interesting perspective. My mind can be a cruel place and it is completely defective. But all my attempts to fix this have proven to be ineffective. Maybe I need to settle down and be more reflective.

I refused to give up hope. I am just scared that I don't figure this out soon, I could end up being at the end of my rope.

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