Learning To Love Myself

 With Valentine's Day closing in, I figure I would want to talk about the subject of love. More specifically self-love. I want to talk about this because of my life long battle with depression. You see, I am trying my best to become less hateful towards myself which has not been easy for me to say the least.

Trying to say or think positive thoughts about myself isn't always the best moments in my life. Honestly, I wouldn't really know what to say. Even when I do try to say something positive about myself, I just remind myself about things like my cerebral palsy and/or my scoliosis and I go right back into insulting myself or worse.

But now, I have been really pushing myself to become more positive. Despite my dark thoughts, I don't want to live in fear of myself and I don't want to live with regret not trying. 

Thanks to this blog, I really have been able to look back at some of my darkest times in my life and still manage to somehow crack a little smile on my face. And I thank God for that. Such examples like discovering how much I enjoy writing whether it be about sports, video games, comic books, anime, my own stories and of course, my blog. Another examples include things like me making my high school baseball or being able to be a part of pro wrestling for as long as I did despite my physical limitations.

I have also been slowly just accepting things about myself that someday I will be more open to talk about with all of you.

So for this Valentine's Day, I am going to start loving myself. To be honest, I have been extremely scared to do so because I thought I was being selfish. Despite me being someone who usually sticks to himself, I generally kind about other people because I really don't like seeing people suffer. But a lot of people have told me that I need to learn to love myself before I could love anyone else.

I guess it is now or never and to say I am scared is a major understatement. So I hate to ask, but if any of reading this, I would greatly appreciate it if you all could send me your thoughts, your positive vibes and your prayers.

Until Next Time!

God Bless and Be Safe Everybody! 🙏🙏🙏



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