I Hate Being Socially Awkward But Continue To Push Forward

 As I continue to try my best with getting out into the world and be more open and honest with myself as well as other people. I have been facing a lot of issues with being more open or maybe I am just overthinking things as always.

I guess, what I am trying to say is that I wish I was more confident in what I want to say or tell people. And to also be less concerning on how people would react to some of the things I really want to talk about or want to discover if this is truly something that really is a part of me.

It is however getting a little tougher for me mainly because of how the world is constantly changing and everybody is just judging and or attacking one another over slight differences. I just want to be myself without fear of having to look over my shoulder.

But I will say I have been slowly building up my confidence with everything especially this past year. And I give all the credit to GOD. These last few months alone I have been noticing that I haven't been as anxious or angry about a lot of things that I was in the past which makes me wonder if I have grown spiritual and as a person.

Now, sadly I still struggle to open up about few things that honestly, I really want to let out but because I fear with how people would react or being misunderstood and I certainly do not want to cause an issue. I just simply want to try to make it through this life.

And that was one of the reason I have been writing poems, short stories, etc. Again, I am truly blessed to be able to launch my first book on Amazon and I am forever grateful and appreciative to every single one of you who had supported me throughout this tough time for me because I do worry about how some of you will react to it.

But this also goes with me trying to find work as well because I do not wish to cause any problems. I just simply want to be myself and just work as hard as I can and be on with my life. 

However, as the title says I want to continue to push forward because I really want to start being able to communicate with other people and explore and get away from being in such a sheltered life.

Until Next Time!

Love You All

God Bless and Be Safe!

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