Socially Awkward and Burnt Out

 These last few days have kind of been a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions right now and I am letting some stuff get to me again.

A lot of this has to do with some of the stuff I am writing about in my blog because in one of my previous ones that I have written. I made promise to myself that I will not be afraid of some of the stuff that I want to talk/write about.

I promise I am working on those blogs as we speak, the problem however is the simple fact that I started to let those voices in my head telling me that I shouldn't do it, people are going to hate me, etc.

I think that it is pretty obvious that I am socially awkward. And recently my mind and body sort of gave out on me and I have been trying to relax these couple of days.

I am feeling better now for anyone who is concerned. 

The problem I am currently having is that I would love to be able to express a lot of things, but as I mentioned earlier, I fear that people are going to hate me and I don't want people to hate me nor do I want to hate anyone.

I want people to know that everything I say is out of love and compassion because we all can use some of that right now in this crazy world we live in.

So I just pray that everyone will understand some of the things I will talk about in the near future because I need to really start opening up to people and not live in fear anymore.

Hope and Pray you all will understand! Sorry for being paraniod.

God Bless and Be Safe!

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